aussie_gal

My mum was diagnosed with paranoid schizo ages ago, I'm only 17 and i have learnt to deal with it (you'd have to). But I feel bad about myself cos' sometimes instead of being symapthetic to her, i get so angry. I must sound like a monster, the most annoying thing is she won't admit it, she's in deniel. Like she has offecially been diagnosed with it, she's been in and out of mental homes, etc. But she refuses to admit it, she truly belives the delusions and illogical things she says does sometimes is out of ordinary. Its so wierd, one day she'll be normal, the next she be saying things that are so 'out there'. When I was little she used to tell me such wierd things (at the time I belived her, I was about 6-7), like she'd say that out nieghbours are trying to kill us, and my friends are 'all against me' and wierd stuff like that. And it did effct me growing up, I was always suspicious of people and never let anyone get close to me. But now I'm a bit better. But I get SO ANGRY at her sometimes. Oh man, shes driving ME mad!

anyways just wanted to vent my frustrations