Jennaca21

I've been suffering from extreme anxiety, panick disorder/attacks,depression, and PTD for the last 4 years now..My symptoms seem to variey in intensity, but are always there..I was dianogosed with schitzophrenia the first time I ever went into the Dr's..( She said this wasn't her ''area of expertise'')but that the symtptoms I was exibiting sounded like it..I knew I had been suffering from depression for years, and looking back now in retrospect, axniety disorder since I was a child..( I Just turned 21)..Anyways, after that I saw several other Dr's/Physchiatrists who said it wasn't Schitzophrenia at all, but more the Depression and Anxiety disorder..It was such a relief to hear that..But I'm still obessed with the fact that I may have it..I'm always in a constant state of derealization, everything around me feels unreal and unfamiliar, even my own face..I feel like an alien trapped inside of my brain, that I cant escape..I feel as tho I should be talking/acting different..I dont hear voices in my head that are like satonic or anything, telling what to do, but I DO HEAR MY OWN THOUGHTS..kind of like their being narrated..Or I'll space out and imagine conversations inside my head..I know their not real, but I cant seem to get rid of them..I also feel like I have 2 voices inside of my head arguing back and forth..one being negative, the other debating with it..I sometimes look at someone who looks ''suspicous'' and avoid them, like if I'm at the store or something, but havent ever had thoughts of the Gov or whatever ''out to kill me''..I'm able to present myself in an intelligent manner while around people, and nobody would ever guess that there was something ''wrong'' with me..I'm wondering, that if I was schitz would I be able to do that? I also have an extremely good memory..My Boyfriend says he's amazed by it! lol..I'm not sure if people suffering from schitz have that? I feel paranoid alot..Mainly about NEVER coming out of this feeling, and that I'll be like this forever..To sum it up-The symptoms with anxiety disorder/panick disorder, and depression are so cloesly correlated with other mental disorders, such as schitzophrenia that its hard to differieniate..Can someone please give their advice as to whethere or not they think I am? Thanks ~Jenna~