I don't even know how to explain how I feel. Wondering if I have schizophrenia. I'm 18. I haven't been diagnosed with it before. For the past year I haven't been able to take care of myself at all. I don't think anything's real. I can't differentiate between what's real and what's fake. I don't even think my thoughts are my own. I can't focus on anything. There's random chatter in my head all day. Random thoughts keep coming into my head. Odd and unusual. I feel so messed up. I'm scared and distressed. I feel like I'm going through something serious and the doctors haven't figured it out. They keep telling me it's OCD and Anxiety/depression, but I think it's something more. Because I literally am so detached from myself. It's extremely difficult to explain. I really don't know how to. I don't even feel safe with myself anymore. My suicidal thoughts are getting worse and worse.