Mild Case of Schizophrenia
So I've done lots of research and I can't seem to find the answer to my question. About 15 years ago my grandfather died (most important person in my life) and since then I've changed tremendously. Part of me is this very good, God-fearing person that used to do good things effortlessly. Another part of me has grown to not be a very good person at all. I've taken to lieing to my wife. In my previous marriage, I cheated on her several times. In this marriage I have to push the bad thoughts away of wanting to do stupid things to hurt my marriage. I'm so happy with my wife, but it is still difficult to push the bad side away. I feel like there's a good side of me and a bad side. The good side is constantly pushing the bad away. Any thoughts as to why this is happening? Do I have a mild case of schizophrenia or something?