I'm in the same position right now. I feel like no one believes me when i say i might have schizophrenia despite evidence that contrast this, but they really can't imagine what it's like. I was recently evaluated and was found by my psychologist that i might have a mood disorder, schizophrenia, schizoffective, or either types of bipolar. I was experiencing symptoms of anxiety and depression for 2 years, and about a month ago broke down and had a panic attack where i thought my mom came in my room one night trying to kill me and was scared to find she hadn't at all the following day. I was found to have all the negative symptoms, and developed recently hearing voices, hallucinations, paranoia, panic attacks, psychotic episodes, depersonalization, catatonia, and generally being aloof and drifting away from reality. I was prescribed 5, and then a week later 10mg Abilify which i had a severe dyskinetic reaction to and now i'm on 100mg seroquel which will probably be bumped up soon. I'm at a partial hospitalization program and they keep saying I'm anxious and depressed with otherwise unspecified psychotic symptoms, but that's just frustrating code they use to basically say it's too early to label you anything yet. I'd recommend you try a psych evaluation and follow up with a partial hospitalization program so you can meet a psychiatrist if you need meds and be monitored for a few weeks before a concrete diagnosis can be made (your description fits the criteria so i think you'll know without their help but they need it anyway). I know how it's like to go through this stuff, and the process for getting help for it can be almost equally as frustrating, but have faith and hold on a bit longer, you'll get well soon!