Re: Did I enter your world, briefly?
sounds scary. also sounds familiar. i would caution against other dopamine agonists. i am familiar with the fact that those treat a dopamine deficiency and can really help with such symptoms (i get bad akathesia, which is similar, from my dopamine antagoists). i am curious: can something i use for my akathesia, such as cogentin or diphenhydramine, possibly help you? it sounds like you might be slightly predisposed to a psychotic illness, which you want to avoid as much as possible. at the same time i know what you are going through can be excruciating.
i am diagnosed with schizophrenia, not bipolar disorder, yet taking wellbutrin made me manic. i don't know what this means, the fact that some of us don't have a disorder but it can be brought out by a certain med. i would by very cautious and you HAVE to be honest with your doctors, despite your shame, because otherwise they can't help you.