i started cutting about a month ago its really hard to explain why i started in the first place but now i cant stop i want to stop but at the same time i dont.... when i do it it feels like its helping me but after i kno that its hurting me and making everything worse but then i go and do it again, its like i want to cut but i dont know ... how can i stop?why cant i stop? please help
The best thing to do is find something else that will replace the cutting, which is a lot easier said then done. Cutting becomes very addictive rather quickly and like stopping any type of addiction you need to recognize why you do it then find something else that will accomplish the same thing you are looking for. Everytime you think you are about to cut find a way to keep yourself busy like go for a walk or just throw yourself into a group of people. It will take some willpower and inner strength but as time progresses so will the urges hopefully.
take care
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Also, go through some of the other posts on this board; they help with lists of what to do when you think your are going to relapse.
Please seek help if you can't control yourself. I understand completely where you are coming from- I was at that point many times in the past two years.
i was similar. i started cutting, and then i wanted to stop, but cutting made me want to cut more because it was hard. and its like a never ending cycle.
I've never cut Faith, I have just got to know people here who SI and I hear what they are saying. From listening here for 1 1/2 years it seems that one common reason to cut is from unbearable emotions that aren't being dealt with any other way and the cutting gives relief. It would seem to me that dealing with the emotions in a healthier way would be a way out. Expressing the emotions, problem solving, etc.
Faith, I've gone through periods of cutting and I know it feels good. Maybe not physically, but I know it eases emotional pain. The problem (for me) was that it escalates. The more often I cut the deeper I'd have to go for that same relief.
I found a therapist who specializes in self-injury and he helped me a lot. Is therapy an option for you? Even if you don't see a SI specialist sometimes just having someone to talk to helps. Journaling also helped me. I didn't know how to deal with my feelings and face what I was going through. I couldn't verbalize my emotions and had nobody to talk to that would understand them. Sometimes I'd feel like I would explode - cutting provided the outlet I needed. Aside from therapy and journaling I sometimes find meditation and yoga beneficial. Anything to release that stress and help me focus on what is really going on inside of me. I've read some books on SI, but a lot of them are written to help loved ones understand. They don't always address how to stop. Try to calm yourself down when you get upset and really focus on what you are feeling.
i used to cut a couple years ago, i did for almost a year. it's a tough thing to quit because it becomes an addiction. i finally realized that the scars weren't going away, and i was just multiplying them everyday. my wrist, to this day are still covered in scars from years ago, as well as my upper arm, stomach, and thighs. it upset me that i couldnt dress the way i wanted because i was constantly having to worry about whether that shirt, or those shorts, covered the scars.
it was a slap in the face that i had to do something about it.
but it takes a lot of willpower to stop. just think "mind-over-matter" as my older brother used to say.
one thing i found that worked for me to replace the cutting was to write/draw on a piece of paper whatever it was that was bothering me, it could be a letter to a specific person, or just the emotions going through your head, whatever it is, put it on paper. then go outside and light it on fire, watch it burn each sentence/word/ect.
i found it works for me, i get that same feeling inside as i did when i cut.
it may, or may not work for you. everyone's different.
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