Re: Does anyone really "feel better" after SI?? Is it a compulsion?
I understand what you're saying. I also cut when I felt, as you put it "overloaded", and it came a second habit for me. I've been a SIV for over four years, and I have never once felt better afterwards. As for people saying that it is "selfish", I could see where they would get those ideas. They think that you care more about yourself then the loved ones around you who would be upset if you intentionally hurt yourself.
Do your parents or your friends know what you're doing? Are you still cutting, or are you trying to stop? If you are, I really suggest that you stop. It's never, ever a good road to go down, because once you start it's very, very difficult to stop.