I had another hallucination in my sleep last night and woke up with a pair of scissors in my arm, had to go to Urgent Care and get 6 stitches. I really don't understand why this is happening to me, nor do I understand how to make it stop. I just want my life back...but don't know if it's too far gone to get it back... I went to Urgent Care by myself because I'm so sick of dragging my husband through all this, he doesn't deserve this nor do my kids. Sometimes I think it would be better if I just left and let them live their lives without my insanity.
yes I'm under the care of both a Psychiatrist and a Psychologist. I alos have BiPolar disorder, PTSD and Chronic Pain. I take Seroquel for the BP, and it is supposed to have some reduction effect on the need to cut. I also take 9 other meds including Lamictal, Zoloft, Topomax, Ambien, Sonata, and Phentanyl, Ultram, and Norco for Chronic Pain. So I'm just basically all around screwed up.