Re: what can i do, instead of cut myself
I would suggest finding a positive outlet for your pain. People cut as a form of emotional release, so why not channel that into something you can benefit from?! I know that it is much easier said than done, but it is the only way that you can begin to heal. When I become overwhelmed and feel the urge to cut, I write about my feelings instead of cutting. It doesn't always work, because sometimes the pain is just too much. But it's a start.
Keep posting!! Talking about your feelings with people that truly understand your struggle is incredibly theraputic. Good Luck!!