Re: I don't understand...
*sigh* well I'd love to tell you that hey if you get away from the abusive bas***** you'll be able to live without cutting anymore, but well ain't so. I've been fighting this since I was 12 and I'm almost 40. Yes I've has abuse in my past, sexual, physical you name it, we don't do it for attention we do it because it's how we learn to cope when we have no "normal" parents or adults to teach us how we should cope with horrible things that should never ever happen to children. I've been able to stop for long period of times, but not quit. 2008 has been hell for me, complete with 2 ER visits totalling 26 stitches, 1 suicide attempt and a week stay in the psyc ward. But, for me anyways, you get up dust yourself off think of your kids and figure out a reason to keep on trying....again. I'm finally on my own with just me and my son, and I'm the happiest I've been in a long time, but I still cut, and I still have BiPolar with severe suicidal depression, I'm just happy in between all the hard times. I take tons of meds, I see a psychologist once a week, a psychiatrist every 2 weeks, and I'll keep doing it all whether I want to or not, because I have a son who needs me to take care of him and that gives me something to fight for.
Don't give up hope, everytime you stop is a victory and if you fall down, then get back up, dust yourself off, think of your daughter and know that you have something to fight for.