Alright, I'm pretty certain that I don't belong in this group, but I could really use some input on something. The last few days I have been feeling different. That's honestly the only way I can put it. I go from extremely angry to doubled over laughing in seconds, it seems. I have also been feeling depressed. I have never had problems like this before. An incident last night is why I'm writing this,.... I all of a sudden felt so awful, almost frantic. I don't really even remember what I was thinking about, but the next thing I knew I was sitting on my bed, razor blade in hand with about ten cuts on my thigh. This has never, ever happened to me before. I feel comletely normal now, and can't understand what led me to do that, or even making a conscious decision to do it. I feel so stupid about it all... but I am absolutely terrified that it will happen again. The thing is, my life is awesome, and I know it. I recently got my EMT liscense, am holding a 4.0 in college, and everything has been relatively normal for me. I guess I just don't understand, it doesn't seem like I should have any reason to have done this. I am scared to death that I am going crazy, for lack of a better term. I guess if anyone can give me any insight, or advice or something, I would really appreciate it. Thanks so much.