I hope you dont mind my question...
I am being treated for depression, I have had some pretty dramatic ups and downs and some suicidal thoughts (not intentions). I dont have the courage or serious intention to end things, it is much more about ending the stressors in my life. but lately I feel tempted to jab at myself with a sharp knife, or to pinch myself, scratch or dig my nails in until I leave marks. I find it oddly comforting to feel some sort of pain. I havent done anything serious other than leave a few scratches. My question is, is this how things start? What do I do?
Not a doc, so of course cannot diagnose you, but honestly yes, this sounds like a classic case of beginning self harm. Now what you have to do, is stop it before it starts. This is your best chance to get rid of something that you don't even need to start, okay?
I have BiPolar Disorder w/BP med resistant suicidal depression, so I understand those bad ups and downs. But you have to try and fight this, find another coping mechanism as opposed to harming yourself. I just posted a thread here on this board with some alternative coping skills, why don't you take a look and see if anything might pertain to you, 'kay.
thank you for your response, I think I was hoping someone would say exactly what you have said, it kind of gives me permission to seek help about it....
thanks and I will read through your thread