Re: s/h foster child of christian foster parents
I noticed your multiple diagnosies in yoru signture, I'm assuming your foster mom knows about these?
Have you talked to her and told her your scared and that you don't want to SH/SI but you don't know how to stop, and your scared at the thought of having to get yourself to the hospital for care by yourself. Sometimes direct communication can be the best way.....
It seems wierd that she was sympathetic to your problems on minute and then one visit from a christian "speaker" and now she doesn't have anything to do with them. I'm sure she's still very worried about you, but probably just doesn't know how to handle the situation or what to do. I would almost bet all I have on it, handling Sh/SI is probably harder for our loved ones and those who take care of us then it is for us sometimes, it doesn't come with a guide book, and it's got to be very confusing and hard to understand, so tyring to know what the right thing to do it, or how to do it, has got to be expecially hard.
Try talking to her, bite the bullet, pick a calm, quiet afternoon where the two of you can talk uninterrupted and tell her how you feel, you might evern try to explain to her what leads you to self harm, if your able, and explain that even though we try to stop, it's just not that easy.