Gosh, it's just not my day
I had a therapy appointment which was not too bad, however I nearly cried about not feeling like a good enough parent . But , I listened and was able to stop from breaking down.
I then remembered that I recieved a Jury Summons so I went back home and returned with it. I had my Psyh. Doctor write a letter so I won't have to deal with it. It's for next Wed. Since i was already there I decided to ask one more question that was bothering me.
The last severe SI i had done the apt. manger found out because A tenat lied to them and said i had set myself on fire. They knew i had not, but said it anyway, because they themselves were getting evicted. they wanted me in trouble too. I recieved a letter asking about it, and i had to tell them I never have done that, and that i have Borderline Personality Disorder, and SI.
The Apt manager verbally told me not to SI. Well I have , so i was scared that she was going to try and evict me. I talked to my Psych. Dr. about it today and he used the words I have not heard before. LIke I have a mental illness and it is dicrimination for them to evict. For him to say it to me, was like oh, ok, a mental illness, hum.... u know what i mean? i just call it a personality disorder, and clinical depression. Mental illness, yikes. Sounds scary to hear it from a doctor. Especially one who has been treating me for years. Perhaps i am being overly dramatic. It just feels crappy though. I needed to vent. Now I am going to take a nap. that's what i do when I just don't feel right. After I smoke a cig.