Originally Posted by pixiedust31
nice to meet you all
im new erm i get writers block when i do things like this
ok so im 25 iv been a selfharmer now for 7years i have up and down sides with my slefharm and depression suffer with bp aswell
im having urges and my nightmares are a lot worse since i stopped and my moods go from one extreme to the other i am trying to find ways to cope without selfharming i new it would never be easy but just the urges are so strong its hard to deal with and with the lack of sleep and i have a stressful job and i have been rather off with people
i want to explain why but i am worried for my job if i do tell them and they do not understand and push me out so i keep it quite again another thing i keep and i hate that but i feel i have no choice
anyway im going on its nice to meet you all i hope i make friends and can be of some help
thanks for reading pixie
I'm Kat how are you? We have a bit in common you and I. I have been cutting for 27 years, I also have BP II w/Severe Suicidal Depression, and Borderline Personality Disorder...Fun Huh? I'm currently on 8 different psych meds, none of which are for the self harm, because beside some off label trials of Seroquel they're aren't really any meds for this. I just started a DBT Therapy Group to try and get control of my cutting and suicidal ideations/intentions.
I've had to get stitches 7 times in the last 8 months, the last time being 11 days ago, so I know all about how bad the urges can be and how hard it is to fight them. I've went for years at times without cutting, but for the last year and a half when my brain "woke up" and remember the sexual abuse I suffered as a child, the cutting has taken back over my life. I think the longest I've went without is 10 days. But I'm still fighting to get it under control, I refuse to let the urges and the actual act of cutting to rule my life! I see a Psychiatrist once a week and a Psychologist twice a week they help alot, I know most people don't see there's quite often but I've had alot of recent suicide attempts, it's been a rough time.
This is a good spot to come for support and really great people to give it to you, your also welcome to share your stories and support with us, we all, always need support.
I'll stop this book now....