Cutting for Emotional Pain
Hello there. I just wanted to take the time to introduce myself in here, because i also am a cutter. For me, it started when my baby died from SIDS. For years, I felt great relief in drinking and cutting to get rid of emotional pain. It really worked for me. (or else I just thought it did) It does not work for me anymore at all. Another thing I felt was in shock and "numb". For many years after Kory died I just felt "not alive anymore". By cutting, I just felt real again. Like I was human again. I had pain and bled. Little by little, as I share these kinds of feelings and behaviors to other cutters, I release this pain. Today I havent cut for almost a year now! I am on the mend. By NOT feeling ashamed of my past and by dealing with it and walking through it now, I am leading a happy productive life again. My life is not the same at all as it was before Kory died. Today, I do find satisfaction and hope. I feel way better than i ever thought I could feel again, and thats a wonderful thing to do.. Sincerely, Mykinzie.
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