Self Harm while drinking
Last night, in my infinite wisdom, I decided to hurt myself.
Obviously I had been drinking, otherwise I wouldnít have been so stupid! I wonít go to my doctor. I donít trust or like her. As far as Iím concerned the only thing she is good for is writing the prescription for my pain medications Ė Iíve spinal nerve damage and on oxycontin for severe sciatica. Whenever I try to discuss any new ailment with her she blames it on my back problems without pursuing it any further so I donít bother talking to her about anything anymore.
I want to stop doing things like this to myself. Drinking is the reason I do stupid things like this and I want to stop, but part of me does not. I feel like I donít have anyone to talk to and donít know how to break my behaviour patterns.