Re: I feel the need to hurt
Nah....nothing serious is wrong...it's not a brain defect...it's just an easy way to cope. Trust me, it's a helluva lot easier to pick up a blade and deal with all the "stuff" in your head/life that way than to actually work on things or your self and fix the problems...waaayyy easier. Slash, slash, a little pain, some blood, get the rush, get the high..feel better.....working on your issues, working the steps, therapy is work, hard work....human nature we always gravitate towards the easiest, fastest fix. We want the pain to end and NOW! Especially when we're young. The thing is, cutting will never be a permanent fix...you'll have to do it more and more, more often, deeper, harder, hurt more, bleed more....it won't ever be enough.....eventually it takes over and you can't stop it....its an addiction just like drugs or booze or any other high.