im breaking into pieces.. i can't take this much longer. the urges are so incredibly strong and i don't think i can fight them anymore.. i think im going to give in today.. i really have tried so hard not to cut or burn but its all too much now..
I was able to meet with my psychiatrist and we made several changes to my medications but i haven't met with my therapist yet. I'm hoping to meet with her soon though. I know since making so many changes to my medications, its going to take time to get used to it and to see how its going to affect me, the waiting time though, is quite hard right now..
I know its tough and I am not the best person to tell you that you can do it but you can, I know you can. I will take it a day at a time with you so far I have made it 24.5 hours without a new cut. My current goal is 36 hours can you do that with me? Just hold out until tomorrow and we will get through this.
I'm with you on trying to make it hour by hour. I haven't given in afterall. I was going to, but for some reason my tools were misplaced and I couldn't find anything at all to compensate. I guess thats a good thing though. Thanks for your support though.
Im doing my best to get through the medication change.. I'm trying to wait for the changes to happen, but it is quite difficult at times. I haven't seen my therapist still. I have a call into her office though and i should be seeing her either this week or next week.
Kat I am hanging in there. I cut last night but as I mentioned in another thread, I met with a Pdoc tonight. That went well and so far tonight I don't have the need to cut. I am a little scared to try sleeping tonight. I took my ambien but havn't had any alcohol. He says that the meds alone can produce REM sleep cycles which produce dreams. I can't handle dreams on any of the topics currently floating about my head.
If your prone to have dreams or nightmares, then you might want to talk to your doc about stopping the ambien and replacing it with something else. It can be very bad about inducing nightmares and has an amnesiac effect as well....so be careful with the ambien.