Phoenix

Hello greenstumpie,

First of all,let me say that i'm sorry you're having such a rough go of things.Your success in school(intellect) seems to be clashing with the ritualistic(psychological/emotional).

Intellectually,I believe you know that the right thing to do is seek help and I realize that when the emotional is introduced,it has a tendency to overpower most of the time.

I get it;honestly.

I understand also that you are doing exceedingly well with your courses,which is something to be proud of.

Your quality of life is what concerns me.Living on the edge isn't really living at all but merely existing.

I am hearing that you want better for yourself and know that I want for you the same thing that you do;a life self injury free.

As this cannot be an immediate reality,I ask you to seriously consider getting help yet again,in an inpatient setting.

Yes,you've been there before but try to prepare yourself to do something differently this time.Use that intellect to look at your behaviors and attempt to muster up the courage that I know you possess deep down.

Before you do so,might I suggest having a heart-to-heart with your therapist.I mean one of these "soul searching i've discovered an epiphany" sessions that gets all the parameters covered.Tap into that intellect;I believe you can do it.

Here's the thing;it's not what I believe but what you do that will dictate your next move.

A mind is a terrible thing to waste and at times we'll have to re-invent ourselves.

Know that i'm in your corner;cheering and rooting for you greenstumpie.

Life dictates the play and we must play to win;why run a race just to come in second place?(Food for thought)

Respectfully
Phoenix

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