Having trouble fighting the urge
A little back story on me. I was a cutter for years. About 5 years ago I cut myself so badly that I cut down to the bone and had to have major surgery on my arm to try to repair the damage. I have pain every day because of it, but that action scared me to the point that I never did it again. That and I promised my then fiance that I wouldn't.
Cut to last night when my husband and I got into a massive fight where some ugly things were said. Since last night I have had an overwhelming urge to cut myself... one that I can barely control. I've done everything I can think of to distract myself, but I am feeling like cutting myself is inevitable... that as soon as I am alone and have the opportunity, I will do it.
I'm not sure what to do, but I feel like I'm being driving crazy with these obsessive thoughts to hurt myself. Any advice on what to do?