Re: Really confused
I began self harming when I was a teen. I was 15, now I am 26. I would do it when I was really sad or mad. I never understood why I did it. I began by bruising myself, then it turned to cutting. I would (and still do) feel guilty about it after I did/do it. It seemed to turn into an addiction and the only way I could deal with my emotions after a while. You are probably dealing with some depression and anxiety and finding this as a distraction for your feelings. It's not uncommon and it can feel embarrassing. You'll be ok, but you need to see a therapist as a first step I think. They can help dissect your feelings and help your figure out why you're doing it. It always gave me a sense of control in my life to harm, but I know now it really isn't healthy and it's a sign that you might have some underlying issues that are worth talking to a professional about. I always hid it from my parents because I was afraid I would get in trouble so they didn't find out until this past year actually when I was hospitalized for it. I wish you the best and I hope you can take control of the habit for it controls you.