I too have a history of cutting. I am now 23 years old and I started when I was 7. I had a bad childhood. and many things happened. I used cutting as a way to escape. To get out of the real world. It always worked for me, but when it was done and I came back to reality, my problems were real and I had only created more problems for myself. I havent self injured now since February of this year. It is a beautiful crazy recovery. I have learned that it is hard to deal with life on lifes terms but I am also in a 12 step recovery program for another issue and i use those steps and my sponsor and other members of the program to help me get over the urge to cut as well. Lately there has been a lady that hates me because i live with her ex husband and she has used my cutting and eating disorders against. telling everyone the things that i used to do. to make it even worse she is a social worker and she has been recorded saying that i should just kill myself and that she wishes my real mom had finished the job when she tried to burn us alive. These words hurt, but no matter what, i do not have to cut over it. she is only hurting herself and her career as a social worker. find someone you trust and you love dearly and when times get hard cling to them for dear life. it is hard to live life on lifes terms but i have to turn it over to my higher power and let him have it, otherwise i could do some real damage to myself. i wish you the best of luck and hope you can overcome this powerful addiction. remember that we all love you and we are all here to help.