Originally Posted by tearsnfears
I am scared but I don't know how to ask for help or support ad I feel like cutting would be a way of silently asking for that help. Crazy I know..
I don't think this sounds crazy. In fact, it's practically a word for word description for what's always been a motive for me to cut. Despite how much I wanted something like that to happen, it never has. I started therapy and medication because I asked for help, not because someone made me or because someone understood my silent plea for help. Yes, peers and doctors have noticed my scars, but it seemed like they always commented or inquired about them in a offhand or interrogative tone. I was too embarrassed to tell them the truth. Furthermore, I didn't feel like I could trust them and I worried they would treat me like I'm some kind of freak instead of someone who is in desperate need for help. Unfortunately, not everyone is familiar with self-injury, let alone the real reasons for why it's a coping mechanism.
My therapist is someone who understands why I cut, but he wasn't aware until I told him. It took a year before I was able to force myself to tell him. I don't think he would have ever known if I didn't tell him.