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HI all. I have confusing sexual preferences since I was growing up. I had a mother who was very compulsive to me and she has OCD. My father enjoys cross dressing also.

When I was growing up I would fantasise about others taking advantage of me – I also liked feet alot. Feet would be in all fantasies. When I was small at junior school at the age of about 8 I remember this was the time when I started these sexual fantasies. I had friends at that age who I would think about this fantasy - it was quite an addictive fantasy.

The fantasies have carried with me all the way through high school, but the age would differ alot – I wouldn’t fantasies about age groups much higher but always my age or lower.

When I was 16 I went to see specialists about it, I was worried about both the strange fantasies and the age groups was also strange and varied greatly but was younger than normal.

The result is that I haven’t been able to form a proper relationship because of the strange fantasies and the confusing age groups. I think that my early childhood could be a result of these strange feelings.

The gender and age can vary with the theme about ‘feet’ and those sort of taking advantage of me – although these seem like common fetishes? They don’t feel like it to me. Because my fantasies started at an early age the age group still appears in the fantasies – and the fantasy works with age groups lower than me more than with my age or older.

When I was age 14-15 at high school this was an age when I felt really aroused about the fantasy and would imagine it all the time.
Im 21 now and understand that my fantasies wont damage anyone if I don’t act them out – the fantasies aren’t even about sex. But I would really like to have a girlfriend / boyfriend (think im bisexual) about age 18 – but unsure if the gender or age is good enough for me.

I had a girlfriend at the age of 18 and she was a friend to me but she came on to me and we went out on a date as friends and she started kissing me and stuff. To me it didn’t feel right and I was prepared for it either, although I felt a warm fuzzy feeling I didn’t feel an urge for sex and the kissing wasn’t for me either! Lol

What can you advise me? Please help! (Im male).