Need some help
I recently have been overcoming a drug and alcohol addiction that consumed my life for nearly 3 years. I have since met an amazing guy and we have been dating for about a month. The other night we started fooling around and I realized that I have never had any sober sexual intimacy. This thought scared me so bad that I had to stop everything that we were doing and I couldn't even tell him why. I became extremely self conscious knowing that each of us was fully aware of what was happening and my own body issues came out in full force, which is something that I haven't thought about in a long time. I have told him a little bit about the kind of person I used to be, but I didn't feel comfortable telling him about all the inadequacies I have about myself when I'm not drinking or on drugs. I don't want to burden him with my problems so early into our relationship.
If anyone out there has some good advice or is/was dealing with the same thing please respond.