nokoBot

thanks guys. yeah maybe i should go.. but i don't know, i've gone many times to urologists and they d on't believe me( cause there is no physical signs) and they think it's all in my head. Plus even if they tried to give me something, it's been 1 year, i don't know if anything can heal a 1 year injury that is not visible. and by the way i know the cause, i caused it by masterbation when somehow i reached into the underware and pulled penis and felt a terrible sharp pain, thereafter for 8 months penis was dead. meaning No erections at all. rare sensation in penis, i was going crazy and it never went away. and painful. ok but now 1 year later i regained erections thanks to herbal product i bought, like ginko biloba , ginseng, well it was a special product for penis injury, and now i have erections. so that makes me happy.. but i have pain too if i touch or pull which makes me want to give it up and quit.

so maybe now the meaning of having erections can be Health and circulation which is good for the body.. but no more is the meaning ENjoyment. that sucks........

after i got good in erections i tried varirous times to masterbate, and many of those times i had cramps with effects of up to a week. meaning , i have a cramp then next day i feel little something OR it's in my mind from the shock i experience in having cramps..so like now, it's been 2 days since i had a cramp..and i don't know if i'm feeling pain, but it seems a tiny bit of irritation BUt my mind thinks its worse cause it still remembers the cramp i had.

But before the cramp, i was feeling great, sure to feel good i have to stop all masterbation for days, but i feeel good and normal.. but then if i touch and have cramps.. it's back to pain and shock..

I hope if i had real sex it would be different, with no cramps. i guess i must have sex slowlyyy.. so hopes for an understanding girl in the future( never had girl ever, nor sex)^_^ in the meantime, i should stop touching self,, maybe.. and let the penis be active only with wet dreams, i guess.

what do you guys think? should i do it as i said: cut all masterbation and never do it , just wait for a girl that will love me and then can have sexual relations. which will be in about 20 years, he he^^ cause i'm not a person who can get girlfriend easily, shy guy.

well anywaysthanks