Im 19yrs old, im a virgin. Iv pretty much had no physical experiance with girls. the thing is, i masturbate over transexual porn, but i also masturbate over regular porn, and when i see girls in the street or where ever, i do think normal things, and i will get turned on by them. i have never seen a boy and thought any sexual about them, ever! and i hang around with boys all the time, and i would never do anything sexual with another boy, but am i gay for getting off over transexual porn? or is it just a fantasy? whats going on??!?! In my mind, as soon as i sleep with a girl for the first time, then i will forget about this weird thing.
Please could you tell me what you think of this, or what could be going on.
It's perfectly normal to masturbate to thoughts of transexuals, women and sometimes other men.
My wife wanted me to crossdress everyday. For awhile it was enjoyable, pretending to be someone else. At home, I lived the part of a woman. Every detail. From shaving my body (wife would help), to making each other over, sharing domestic duties, etc. Outside my house, you would never know. I dressed in regular jeans and nice t shirts or button down shirts, would let my facial (stubble) grow. And really it is fun having the best of both worlds.
We even gave thought to me actually becoming a transexual. I must admit the thought intrigued me and we had fantastic sex and I masturbated reguarly over it. My wife even bought some transexual porn, which heighted my desire to become one. But, in the end, it was best that I stay a man and continue to crossdress on a limited basis. And, I'm glad that I made the right choice.
I never considered myself as being gay, because I never entertained any thoughts of being with another man. I saw myself simply as a bi woman, in a mans body. For my wife, she is bi. So, she got what she wanted, another girl so to speak.
And, yes, I still pull out the tranny dvds and enjoy myself.
Dont worry so much about labeling yourself as 'something'. At the end of the days they are labels and we can make up all new ones to describe what you are and redefine what being gay or bi is and blah blah blah. You get turned on by transexuals? Then you are a man who is sexually attracted to transexuals and have sexual attraction to women as well. Thats what you are.
No you are not gay, just gender confused at the moment because you havenít had sex with a girl yet. At your age, the body wants sex, and the mind will let it if it gives in to any opportunity that comes along. You can train the brain to respond to chocolate, a good song, food, other stuff and sex. You can also control these switches on and off when ever you want. Start training yourself with a girl friend instead of magazines. If you were gay, guys in gym class at school would have told you. Start chasing girls man, asking the first girl out is tough, but that is only because you are afraid of getting turned down, so, just ask another, than another. Thatís what dating is, not a long term investment, just hanging out with a girl instead of a guy. Go for it. Thereís nothing better, why take second best with some dudes back door?
My buddy who is self-avowed 100% straight, is enthusiastic about transexual porn.
A lot of things are unnatural, but take part in sexual attraction:
bleached hair, fake breasts, etc. This is just another one to add to the list.
I do have girl friends, and i do act normal around them, if you didnt know me, and you saw me talking to a girl, you would i was just some guy talking to a girl, but the reason that im still a virgin, is because...i have a problem with my foreskin, it doesnt expose much of the head when erect, it exposes enough for me to ejaculate normally, and its still clean and normal, but i suppose in a way iv been worried that if i have sex it may hurt, or the girl may find it weird that it doesnt go all the way back.
If your foreskin doesn't retrack all the way, it could be that it's strictured which is easily fixed by a urologist.
I can tell you that most people fantasize about so many different situations. They do this because it can be exciting to think about doing things that aren't considered the "norm". some people won't admit to having these fantasies, but many people do fantasize and are aroused by same sex situations whether it's female on female, or male on male, or in your case transexual intercourse.
Try not to be so worried about whether you are gay or not. When the time comes for your first sexual experience, you will know. Worrying about it is just going to tear you up inside. Ask how many happily married women imagine having sex with another female, lots of them will say they do, but that doesn't mean they are lesbians, or that they would actually go out and have sex with another woman- it just means that they get arroused by it. Somtimes adding a little bit of fantasy or role playing can enhance a strong sexual relationship between two loving partners.
You are still young, and part of being young is exploring the unknown, and learning about your sexuality.