What do I do, If I cannot stop thinking im gay. I know for a fact that I am not gay, I don't want to be gay, though I continue to think about being gay and I cannot stop questioning myself on this subject.
I find the thought of other men disgusting, especially in a sexual manner, though I continue to ponder the subject. IM not sure why I keep thinking of this.
I'm 21 and a virgin, have always liked women, until a few months ago, when these thoughts came into my head. That time and this were the only times that I have thought of it, though it comes up and I cant stop questioning myself.
I ask for some advice, on what to do from other guys, maybe some others have gone through this. Any help would be appreciated.
You need to ask yourself some questions. How do your parents feel about Gays? If you were raised in a home with parents who are anti gay or have a strong opinion against them, you may have the same feelings about Gay people. Do you see where I'm going with this? Maybe you are Gay but, you can't stand the thought of it. There's nothing wrong with being Gay. You need to do what's best for you and what makes you happy.
You may know for sure, after your first encounter with a female.
I agree with Dan, it will probably fade once the first encounter with a woman happens. Sometimes lack of "intimacy" can make the mind do crazy things. I know at one point in my life, I thought about women. Yet, I am totally straight. I had to have an encounter with a woman to realize that I was completely straight.
From my experience with OCD, it sounds like it is OCD in you.
When the thought occurs, try focusing on something else which requires your complete attention, for 15 minutes. That gives the brain a chance to cool down, and return to normal. Good luck.
If you have homosexual OCD, then you can discuss your OCD on the OCD board without discussion the homosexual aspect of your problem. For the board policy on H-OCD, please read the sticky at the top of the General Sexual Health board.