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i'm a healthy 50 year old male. about a year ago, my wife and i were having sex and, in an attemmpt not to ejaculate, i squeezed my penis. i squeezed too hard, apparently, and in the morning, i noticed tiny blood specks under the head, at the top of the shaft. these eventually combined to make a small bruise. everything was okay until i noticed that my penis was starting to change shape. this was a week or so later. it was as if a divet had been taken out of the side of my penis and it began to bend to the left. i was really worried and eventually went to a urologist who informed me that i have what is called PEYRONIE'S DISEASE or PEYRONIE'S PLAQUE. it affects 1 - 4% of men. what happened is that the delicate bruised tissue inside the penis turned into a fibrous mass. so now i have a small, painless lump inside my penis that prevents a straight erection. my erection is now curved up and to the left. also, where the fibrous lump is, the blood is not getting in there so about halfway up the shaft, my penis has an hourglass quality to it. i can still get an erection and still have sex but i'm finding that my mind is now affecting my erections in a detrimental way. is there anyone else out there with this condition or who has insight into it? i'm feeling that if i could get my mind to control my penis i'd be fine but i'm having a bit of trouble doing that. i'm in good shape, love sex and am crazy about my wife, who has a great body and is a total turn on for me. all the elements are there but my mind is stepping in and messing me up. my urologist said that there was nothing that could be done to fix this but i'd like to know if there are any other opinions out there. i tried taking vitamin e pills to break down the scar tissue but it didn't do anything. also, unless my mind is again playing tricks on me, it seems like my penis has gotten a bit smaller due to the fibrous mass preventing full blood flow. it's a bit depressing. any comments or suggestions would be welcome. thanks.