| Body anguish, driving me mad...
well ****. haven't really talked to anyone about this b/c of the embarrasment that ensues but i guess now im anonymous enough to get this off of my chest.
im 23. i started going through puberty around 12....and im still maturing.
i have puffy nipples, i can't grow a beard, my secondary hair in my armpits, chest and legs arent fully grown, i look about 18 tops, i have a very faint happy trail, my adams apple is hardly visible................and all of this is making me insane...........i've always been so embarrased around people.......wearing 2 shirts to cover up my nipples.......afraid to play b-ball b/c i may end up on the "skins" team, never swimming......it has affected my sexual life too.
i just want to be done maturing and look like a man.
so what do i do? I am supposed to go back to college in a week of two, but now I'm afraid to, b/c i want to start a relationship but I'm too much of a coward with my body being the way it is....ya know....i dont want to be seen
as a "little boy" .
i have researched this, and i dont think i ahve any of the disorders taht permanently halt puberty, b/c although i am not fully matured, i do notice year by year that i get more hair.
what do i do?????
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