| | Couldn't get it up!
Well, I had the single most strange, and embarrasing day of my life today...
After work, I ran into a 17 year old girl who hangs out at a youth centre that I volunteer at, and her friend. We went back to my place and then had dinner.
Later that night, the girl's friend asked the girl if she ever thought about having sex with me, and the girl said that she'd be interested, as long as we kept the lights on, made it quick and her friend could wait outside the bedroom door.
Well, we both got naked from the bottom down and got ready to do it, but...as the subject says, I couldn't get it up. I'm on 60 mgs of Celexa, which really messes up my sex drive. I tried watching porno, masturbating, but my penis was totally dead. After awhile, the girl got impatient and said that we should reschedule this for Thursday and try again. Her friend laughed when she heard that I couldn't get it up, and they left.
So, not only am I embarrased because I couldn't get it up, frustrated that I may have missed the chance to have sex with this girl, and mortified that now probably the entire youth centre will hear about my mishap, but I'm feeling that the whole situation was wrong, somehow.
I mean, I don't love this girl, but I would like to have sex with her, because I'm attracted to her. Also, she's pregnant with another guy's child, so that kind of worries me. So, I'm not sure if, on Thursday, I'll be interested anymore, if she still wants to go through with it.
Mainly, though, I'm really upset that I couldn't get it up when I wanted to.