alanawake

hi,

i havent really talked about it before because its kinda embarrassing but im carrying this issue around with me for quite some time now. where do i start?
i was having a nice gf at age 15. i was really in love with her but she dumped me for a car guy before i could sleep with her. all the time we made out i had an errection with a lot of precum in my pants, yet i was still a virgin.
two years later i finally got my chance with a hot girl ive met on a party.
we did some foreplay for several hours and i did some stuff with her that my ex gf didnt even consider or so i thought.
than, at the point where i finally got to sleep with her, my erection was gone...
i met that girl a few times after, and we tried again with the same results. i didnt understand what was happening to me. im very aroused to women.
i was very unhappy and didnt make any moves towards women till was was 21.
then a friend went to a 'cathouse' with me after we celebrated good.
i took a 26 yo ukrainian girl with whom i performed like i a pornstar. hell i didnt even came after one hour.
sadly this was one of my rare experiences where i could even perform. i've been to a few hookers since but it only worked with like two of them.
at the other women it was always the same. i'm aroused days before ill have sex with them but every time (after foreplay) when it should actually happen i go totally soft. all my waist feels numb till 'she' is gone. then i jerk off like 5-6 times in a row on female porn or even just the imagination of a tit. i think i can say safely say that im not gay or something. nor do i have healthissues. i work just fine when im alone. but beeing with a woman kills my manhood everytime.
there being said, that i never had a gf again and all the women im talking about were hookers. i still dont understand my body. why cant i perform ? am i stressed ? i never have like fast heartbeat and stuff just a numb waist. could it be because my 1st gf dumped me and i tried to have my 1st time with a party girl. like i said its not that i dont have an erection. the last few months i even wake up at night with the hard urge to jerk off to get rid of that thingy.
im going to be 33 years soon and im really worried. im also very shy and still wearing braces so i wont approach any women till the end of the year when i get rid of them. im not even sure if should approach any woman. what good is it if im not beeing able to sleep with her. help pls if anyone had the same or similar experience