OhEnrika

Let's started w/ this. I just cried while watching love stories about lesbians on youtube. I questioned myself why i have to be like this. why i was watching it. why i really do like the girls.

I look totally straight in my friends's eyes @ school, also i used to have a bf ( but we broke up 2 months cus im confused myself but didn't tell him) Now, i hate myself for begin looking @ the girls in sexual things. In real, sometimes i pretend to be straight just for get in w/ my friends and her bfs and hers friends whatever.. But still whenever i go, i always look @ the girls but try to keep my eyes away and pretend to be like i do like guys.

I've been watching about lesbian movies for two years while i had boyfriends. I think im the weirdest person eva... Im into pretty girls, i don't like the girls who act like boys .. i like girls with long hair, dress like girls and wear make up. There is a college girl i got a crush she happened to be my neighbor, shes 22 and im turning 18.. i totally like her so so much and used to dream about her and me making out together. But think again its not possible cus she has a bf.


I don't wanna be like this anymore...it makes me upset. i would be normal..