Sexual Dreams since I watched Carebears?
I've had sexual dreams since I used to watch Carebears. That was probably at age 3 or 4, I believe. The dreams included the villain in almost any show I watched, sticking a needle in my anus. At the time I had no idea what sex was, or any anatomy whatsoever "down South".
The dreams continually got more violent as I grew older. Many included blood or impossible acts that would never have left me alive afterwards if it hadn't been a dream.
I continue to have these dreams every night and they have been all I have ever dreamed since then. Every day for over 9 years... that's 3,285 sexual dreams.
I am older now and I know my anatomy. I masturbate daily and I used to masturbate with the jets in my bathtub or in the swimming pool when I was younger. I had been caught several times by my mother but at the time, I did not know what I was doing.
Anyways, now that I know my anatomy, and I know about sex, things have been getting more violent than ever. Demons abusing me, biting me, raping me, licking my neck... I want to stop but I don't know how.
I watch pornography, and enjoy things like bondage and lesbian/homosexual videos.
I am bisexual and I have come out to my mother about this.
I have never admitted this to anyone but I trust that you will take me seriously and provide the best advice you can give for someone in my position.