| Re: my sex drive is too high!
This is a very interesting case, but of course it is not only a case: there is also a human being behind it (you), and this human being could be hurting.
I feel like labelling this as nymphomania, but this may sound unfair to you.
Having such a high sex drive and indulging yourself in it would not be much of a problem for you if society actually ran on pleasure alone (as some theorists would have it: Reich, Marcuse) and if there were no rules (morality) and no other things to do (work).
I want to ask you: other than not being able to establish meaningful relationships, how is your crave for sex affecting other sectors in your life (health, work, friendships, college, eating and sleeping patterns, etc)?
Another question: besides generating kids, sex has two other functions, as far as I can see: giving you pleasure AND giving you power over other people (and therefore allowing you to procure status, wealth, etc). Do you think you are using sex (I don't mean masturbation, of course, I mean sex with another person) just for pleasure or also as a means to something else? If it is just for pleasure, then I would say it is ok, although you are probably having too much and exposing yourself to unnecessary risks. You have to learn to say NO to yourself and refrain from doing it even when you think you need it. It is almost the same with food. You can be hungry (I don't mean starving) and yet you can decide not to eat now (maybe later). It is a question of will. In most cases, your hunger will disappear, especially if you get involved with doing something else.
Now if you are using sex to obtain something else other than pleasure, I think this is something you have to look deeper into. Maybe it has to do with something from your childhood. Maybe you didn't get as much love and attention from your elders as you thought you needed and deserved to. Now it is probably the same with your partners. You want to feel loved and cared for, but all they can give you is carnal sex. You may even have twenty orgasms per day, but this will not fill/feed you, because your real need is elsewhere. Having sex is just a cover for your neglected humanity, if I may say so. Or should I say soul? Of course, you will feel depressed in the end, and perhaps that's why you are taking these medicines.
If you don't want individual therapy, you could join a group of women going through the same "problem". Another option would be investing in other areas of your personal life - getting a better education, going up in the professional ladder, doing voluntary work or embracing a religion or a philosophy, so as to turn sex into a non-priority.
I don't know why, but after I read your post, I though maybe you would like to explore Buddhism. Buddhism teaches about compassion, addictions, concentration (meditation), rituals, balance, thoughtfulness, integrity, energy. It doesn't necessarily refer to sin and guilt. I think the terms and mottoes from Buddhism might be helpful for you to design for yourself a new approach to life in general and to sex in particular.
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