Can't get wet knowing I won't enjoy the act.
I've had sex with five guys in my lifetime and I never enjoy intercourse. I can feel the penis inside me- sort of- but I get no enjoyment whatsoever.
I do enjoy getting oral sex so I'm not asexual.
I'm afraid this is interfering with my current relationship. He's a sweet person who loves me very much and I just can't- CAN'T admit that "hey I get no pleasure from your penis.."
It's really hard to even hide this issue anymore cause I just can't get wet. The thought of him soon going inside me just doesn't turn me on.
I also need more intense kissing but he's very gentle with me. I know I should talk about all of this but I'm afraid it'll just ruin everything and I'll lose yet another boyfriend.
And NO, I'm not a lesbian. I'm almost 25 so I'm pretty sure I'd know by now- plus, the female genitalia doesn't appeal to me at all.
I'm just sorta numb inside- OR I experience pain during intercourse.
It just seems very unfair that each and everytime it's just the guy who likes it. Well, I do enjoy the fact that there's a emotional connection and that he's enjoying it but yeah... need I say more.
Any ideas... I can't see a sex therapist cause I know (s)he'll bring up all these ridiculous theories like "were you molested", "are you religious", "are you asexual", "are you a lesbian", "maybe you just haven't found your G-spot".. blah blah blah.