| I've screwed up big time....
I can't believe how stupid I am, I've caught Gential Herpes off of my girlfriend. On Monday I went with my girlfriend to get a full check up on sexually transmitted diseases (blood and urine tests).
This time I made sure that they'll test for HIV, it's just the wait is so frustrating.
I know I'm to blame for my actions, I know what the consequences are, I know what the possible further consequences are.
If I have HIV though, I don't know how I will cope. I coped when finding out about my Herpes by pretending that I didn't care about it, but no way I could cope with HIV. I mean, what would be the point? You're guaranteed to have your life ruined if you have it.
I know I'm thinking very negatively, but this wasn't the best time for the Herpes and all of that to happen (I have big exams currently).
I just hope I can come out of this a greater person.
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