bleach1200

so i had protected sex about a year and a half ago. i had a std panel done and herpes and everything came back negative, i tested twice one at the 3 month and one at 6 month. about 12 weeks ago i received a handjob. and now i am getting extremely concerned. about a week ago i had a pimple like looking thing and i accidentally popped it and it turned red. it was like a continuos flow of puss for about 3 days and slowly started to heal and it healed in a week. There was no pain itching or burning. now the scary thing about 3 days ago i found a a bump looking thing and i popped it and there was some blood but puss as well on the third day puss is still coming out. I will say again no pain itching or burning. i put a bandaid on it and the puss would go through the bandaid. i have put 3 on it. i am going to get tested for hsv tomorrow at the 12 week mark. there s not really a bump there any more just a red cut looking thing. i guess my concern is that i i really dont want it to herpes. i have posted in all sorts of other forums to they say not to worry. you can not get herpes from a handjob. but i dont know i feel extremely stressed and am barely even to function. Another thing worth adding is that at the bottom of the penis where this is happening there is a strange discolouration which the doctor feels is dryness. There is some itching but i feel like it a normal kinda itch.am i just overreacting? because i constantly read it is practically impossible to get herpes from a handjob. i am just wondering if it sounds liek herpes or am i over reacting. i have had a cold sore at one point of time and that really hurt so i knwo its not that. but i jsut really could use some support or some reassurance. i just want it to be herpes. i thought a handjob was consider safe. aggghh so much stress i jsut wanna be young and stress free.
i would appreciate any input,
thank you