AshleeD

Alright, I have a long post but I'd appreciate it if anyone would read it and help me out! I'm really scared!

Alright, for a couple months now every once in awhile I'll get bumps that look like little zits with a little red ring around them. They do not hurt or itch until I start to touch them. Then after I scratch them, the red ring is kinda still around them but instead of a zit looking thing in the middle, there is pus or some kinda of clear liquid.

My friend thinks it's a yeast infection, and I was hoping that's what it was. So the other day, I noticed the discharge I had was a little milky and thicker than usual and it did smell like yeast.

BUT grrr then...I look at my vagina using a small mirror, and the opening of my vagina was very swollen and red and soo painfully red. I've also been having abdominal pains but I'm also supposed to be starting my period soon, so I don't know where the pains are coming from, the irritated vagina or my aunt that's on the way.

I'm so scared because my mom thinks I have only had sex with one person, a virgin, and he had gotten head before that, so it is possible that he could've had something, but most likely it is probably from one of my other partners but I'm not sure. As I can remember, I started having them after him because we went out for a long time...then we broke up like last summer sometime in July or something. Then I think I first started noticing them in maybe August or a little later.

I don't know how to tell my parents, and I'm so afraid to go get tested. I don't want to have herpes or any other STD. But from all the research I've done on it, it sounds like Herpes. Another thing it also sounds like is Trichmonas which is pretty rare I think, but I do have all the symptoms except sores are present. However I was thinking maybe these sores appeared from itching. I also shave down there and usually right on the sensitive parts of the vagina lips, too.

The Trichmonas symptoms are itchy and red vagina, swollen vagina, and lower abdominal pains. There's also a musty whitish green discharge, which was also present in my panties everyday while I had these. When I went to the bathroom a little while ago, I used a mirror again and noticed the sores are still there but I don't have nearly as much discomfort as I did a few days ago.

I'm young and I'm already somewhat depressed because I think I have something. No one is going to want to be intimate with me again if I have an STD, and no one is every going to want to marry me. What if I'm with someone and I love them and they love me, then all the sudden we are ready for sex then uh-oh, I've gotta tell them I have herpes or some other STD. It would ruin everything because if we weren't for sure going to get married why would they want to risk their chance of getting a disease??

I feel like I am the only one out there! What will happen if I just don't go get tested? I mean it won't kill me will it? I know that sounds childish and silly, I'm just scared out of my mind! I guess you have to have an STD or symptoms to be this scared of them. I never thought I'd be one of those innocent teens to contract one, but looks to me and to these websites I've read that I have.

I'd appreciate ANY advice whatsoever or help that can lessen the pain when I do get these "outbreaks" or whatever they are. Also, is there anything else that this could be? Thanks soo much!
~AshleeD~

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