sooo scared - Sexually Transmitted Diseases Message Board

collegegrl · 07-09-2003, 05:21 PM

hi, i'm so scared at this moment-please help! i'm about to be a college senior and i've been living the past 3 years real carefree and pretty much stupid now 'cuz i'm freaking out about this. i've had unprotected sex a couple times but i'm almost positive that the guys always pulled out before they were done. about a month ago my doctor told me i have genital warts-it's really not a bad case, just a couple. i was devastated but i've been working out alot and building up my immune system hoping they'll go away on their own. they still are there, although they haven't spread, but i'll probably get them removed. what i'm scared about now is that i have a few red bumps on the inside of my mouth. i noticed them like a week or so ago. i've been gargling with saltwater and it seems to be helping. i read somewhere that sometimes a white tongue or something will appear with a genital warts infection. this is the ONLY other sign i have but because i've been freaking out so much lately about std's, i'm scared it's something else, although i'm praying it's all in my head and just a part of the hpv thing. they dont really itch or anything, they're just there. i'm absolutly terrified to get tested though and i want your opinion because i dont want to tell anyone i know. thanks!

livenlearn · 07-10-2003, 09:27 AM

hi there... i know how you're feeling about all of a sudden realizing the things you've been doing are incredibly stupid.... i've been there... BUT, can't change the past, only can change the future... so, with that said, i think its necessary for you to have your doctor screen you for ALL std's... what's in your mouth probably isn't anything you think it is.. but, worth getting checked... although noone knows about this...and can continue to not know.. your doctor already does... they take an oath and your privacy is as important to them as it is to you... talk to him... explain your worries, and ASK specifically to be screened for all std's, and make sure he knows about the concerns you have about the sores in your mouth.... you'll feel much better about it... even if it does turn out to be something you don't want... knowing is better than not knowing...

hope everything turns out well for you!!! please be more careful with yourself in the future.. i know it took me a hard and painful lesson to finally learn... noone is more important to you than you.... keep telling yourself that until you believe it... promiscuous and unprotected sex stems from deep within you not thinking your worthy (it was for me anyway)

just get checked and be careful

collegegrl · 07-12-2003, 08:59 PM

hey thanks. i've been checked for chlamidia and gonorhea before but maybe i should check again. my friend is gonna take me to get tested for the other stuff. i'm terrified tho cuz i think thinking about it is making up symptoms. the red bumps in my mouth are gone but sometimes my lips burn and my throat hurts. i'm hoping that if those bumps were serious they would've stayed longer so maybe since they'er gone it wasnt anything to be worried about. but i'm scared to get my hopes up cuz i can just see getting a positive hiv test and then wanting to die. i'm done with that promiscuous stuff, i have to be. this is the worst feeling i've ever had and it's so not worth it cuz those guys dont care. i hope u're ok too. i honestly cant explain if i did that stuff for a cheap and easy thrill or what. but i know it's not worth it...i'd rather be healthy and not hook up than have one fun night and ruin the rest of my life--at least that's what i've finally come to realize. thanks for being there and good luck with everything. be safe!

07-14-2003, 07:48 PM

Just to be let known pulling out is not an effective method to prevent std or pregancy. You can get it at anytime during sex...sorry to scare you but I am in the same boat myself, little worried right now.

collegegrl · 07-14-2003, 08:39 PM

yeah i know pulling out isant completly effective but it reduces the risks alot for things like pregnancy and stds u can get by mixing bodily fluids like hiv and stuff, right? it's hope at least. obviously it probably doesnt have much effect on herpes and skin-to-skin stuff i know. hope things work out with u. u're not alone, i'm scared too.