stealyurface

I have always been on edge and a little anxious. Not sure where this feeling came from. Maybe some underlying trauma from stressful events in the past, which have been plenty, given my age. In the past few years, this "fear" has exploded into something entirely different. It is terrifying for me to be in any social interaction, from one-on-one talking w/ co-workers, to meeting new people. I completely avoid any interaction with people I am not really comfortable with. It has taken me 10 yrs to reach out and ask for help from a professional. It is making me very isolated from everyone, including family members, which makes me feel even worse when I look back b/c who else can you lean on if not your family. I am getting a med-evaluation this Thursday, which is making me kind of nervous. I have taken several meds in the past from my neurologist & Family Dr. , but I think I'm afraid that there is something more to it than my anxiety. Like some different, more complex disorder. The worry makes me crazy sometimes. But we'll se how things go, I guess it can only get better. Thanks for those that took the time to read. Take care.