I don't know if this is text book anxiety, but I find myself becoming very short tempered with myself, I cannot make a decision and I try my best to not leave the house. I get so uptight and intolerant and ordinary things really **** me off. I feel like a bag of cats, if you know what I mean.
Right now, I should be driving to the grocery store and I will try to find any excuse not to go. (like posting this, for example)
I've gotten to the door with my keys in my hand, and just didn't leave. I will stand in one spot as if glued in place, agonizing about how much I don't want to go out.
I've been like this for somewhat over a year now. I don't work anymore and I think the loss of my job has effected my self esteem and ability to be more outgoing.
If I have to make an appt to go somewhere, I will wait as long as possible to make the call. This isn't how I used to be.
I take an anti depressant and also an anti anxiety medication. I can't imagine how I'd feel if I didn't take these meds, because they don't seem to help much.