806fiona

hi im 25 year old female with 2 young children and a very understanding boyfriend
i started getting symptoms about 7 months ago that i could not explain, when i was pregnant with my daughter
these were lightheadedness, breathlessness, dizziness tingling and a feeling of a need to escape
i ignored them till a couple of months ago when the symptoms started getting worse, i have alot of symptoms that vary from day to day these are-
fatigue
light headedness
feeling distant
numbness in all limbs
tingly face/lips toes
sharp head pains
constant heaviness in limbs
racing heart
pounding head
confusion
neck pain/aches
these symptoms of anxiety then cause me to have panic attacks some of which have been so bad i have gone to hospital because i actually thought i was going to die
that is my biggest fear, that i will die and leave my kids without a mum
the way i think im going to die changes from day to day varying from stroke to blood clots to cancer anything really.
i constantly check myself for swelling marks numbness etc and when i do this i actually start to get symtoms and can even see my limbs swellin even though i know they are not.
i didnt buy into the anxiety diagnosis at first and was trying to convince my doctor that i must have some terrible illness but now i have started to accept it i feel a little better and hopefully i might start to get some sleep without all the thoughts of dying in my sleep keeping me awake.
i take 2 types of tablet one to calm panic attacks and today i was prescribed an anti depressant that will hopefully help. i just want to wake up in the morning and enjoy my day with my babies without thinking im going to die at any moment