My Anxiety Story
Well... I would say my anxiety started in the spring of 2010 during finals, but it wasnt that bad. Then during summer of that year, i didnt socialize much, stayed inside and i think that made it a lot worse. When school started that fall, it wasn't very fun. During every single one of my classes, I felt nervous, extremely hot, and like i needed to run out of the room and i missed a lot of school because of this. I got on Zoloft and it worked although i still was nervous at times, but sure enough I got through the year without anything to bad happening. Then I got off Zoloft this May and during the summer I only felt nervous at times like during work, but not that often.
Before school started this year my doctor said he was going to give me more zoloft in case i wanted to go back on (which i decided i dont) and also ativan just in case (i wish he hadnt). So school started about 5 weeks ago and I was just feeling really nervous so I took the Ativan whenever I needed (about once-twice a week) and it helped a lot. I didnt feel nervous at all, i could make it through the day like a normal person. But the days i didnt take it, I felt more nervous and felt weird. Then on a Saturday (i hadnt taken ativan for about 4 days) i watched a scary movie with my sister and afterwards when I tried to sleep, I realized I was having a panic attack, the worst one of my live. I was shaking, running around the house, and thinking I was going to die. For the next few days at school, I took Ativan everyday because I was so much more nervous and now depressed. It helped but then at night when I wasnt on it and when I was trying to sleep, I felt absolutely terrible and nervous, which was weird because Ive never felt nervous at my house before I went on Ativan. I feel Ativan actually made it worse, but today was the first day i feel a lot better.
I feel like all that i just typed makes no sense and probably has a lot of grammatical errors, but im just trying to get things off my chest. I also feel bad because my story doesnt seem nearly as bad as others, but I think no matter how bad your anxiety issue is, its still a daily struggle.