solostar

This is my experience and I would like to share it, hoping, maybe someone who reads my story will be feeling better. This is my wish for sharing my story.

I went through a lot of things in life. I got married when I was 19 and got divorce when I was 21. I have 2 sons now. My ex-husband was abusive and he also cheated on me, so I had to leave him.

At that point, I wasn't depressed because I have 2 babies that I have to take care of. I devoted all my time and energy to work for my kids. Than I meet someone, which lead me to 4 years of depression.

He, as I thought at that point, was the one for me. I was so happy that I finally found someone that was so special. We dated for about a year and everything fell apart. He told me, he won't be able to accept me because he don't really love me. I fell apart. I was crying everywhere I go. I was very very angry at the whole world. Even if I try to hide my feelings, people around me knows that I'm depressed. My friends talk to me a lot but it didn't help me at all. I was just feeling sad all the time.

One day, I met a lady at a restaurant, she was so so nice to me. She don't have any daughters and she treated me as if I was her daughter. She would hug me everytime she sees me and talk to me about looking at things differently. I was gradually healing at that point but than she found out she had cancer and she don't have too much time to live. I think you can imagine how I felt at that point.

I start to withdraw from going to see her because the pain was so great but everytime I go see her, she still treats me the same. The same smile, hugs and a lot of conversation, as if she is in perfect health.

One day, I asked her, how can you still be the same, after you find out you're not going to live for very long?
She told me, "This is why I am the same, I got a message from above reminding me that I don't have much time anymore and I should be loving whoever I can now."

She past away a year later, I remember her words until today. (Its been about 5 years now)

What made me recover was her love. Love whether you give or receive will help you recover from depression. Love yourself and everyone around you.

Best wishes