Depressed.. don't know what to do.
I don't know where to begin.. I have had depression/anxiety for a while but it seems to be getting worse. I've been without meds for a couple months although I do go back to the med doctor in early January. I find myself with no desire to get dressed. I have put on a additional 20 pounds in addition of already being 50- 60 pounds overweight. I don't work outside my home. (I receive disability although social security wants to review if I'm still disabled now). I have 3 spec needs children. My middle son has been making my life hell on top of everything else. he is 15 and has adhd/ and a learning disorder. but the past yr he has been difiant, last summer after I was already hospitalized for my anxiety then the social worker calls dss on me comes to the house(which was done cause i was having a meltdown and never had anything to do with the kids). The dss person talked to my middle son that said I hit him, i didint, even my oldest son said i didnt but she didnt believe it. I was removed from my home had to stay with my father until i could go to another hospital which was the only way i could go home. to this day he still says i beat him a few weeks ago I had to call the cops cause he never came home after school(he eventually did 3 hours later) a few weeks before that he pulled out a knife, punched the wall and i had to hide in the bathroom until my husband came home. yesterday he called me names, told me to shut up. he will go off on me if my husband and i are arguing. thats a bit of my life.....