For the last 4 years, I have questioned myself as of why I am here. First, my best friend passes, my brother passes, my father gets severely ill and then I lose my mom and during this time I find out that I had cancer too. Now during this time I went thru a divorce, went thru 3 relationships that cheated on me with other women and violently attacked by one of them. All I can say is, "WHY"! Then the end of 2006 I met the man I thought was the one. We enjoyed the same hobby and many other things, and I felt there was a future for us. 2 days before he was going to start moving in with me (Just this January 2009), he said that he couldn't go on. He had so many reasons why and I was shell-shocked on them. He never sat down with me and seriously told me anything was wrong. Scratching my head saying "How the man I love tells me that he loves me and that we are happy together 3 weeks ago and then does this". I have been distraught, confused, angry and torn with every emotion you can imagine. Why am I here Lord. To watch the people I love die, to have people come into my life to destroy my heart every minute, work my rear off every day to save my home. Why am I here. I have no purpose, but I am still here to have horrible things happen to me. I am not asking for any medical advice, but I am just confused why this is happening to me. I am a good person and I would do anything for anyone I love. It just confuses me why all of these horrible things are happening to me when I haven't done anything bad to anyone to deserve this. How much praying can a person do to stop the pain and have the horrible things to stop.