Hey guys, i usually post on the addiction/recovery thread but i need to post on here for now.
Ive been struggling with a lot of things lately with my psychologist and family tragedies. Ive had depression before and have always managed to pull myself through. Ive got a lot of things going through my head at the moment and dont know which thread to post on.
I did try to end it all a couple of weeks ago as it all is getting too much for me.Im tired of feeling tired. Im tired fo being alone.
I have a really small group of friends who feel the same way from time to time and i thought we were all here to support each other when things got this bad, well i was wrong. My so called closest friend has disappered over the last 3 weeks and says its not personal. So how else am i supposed to take it? Trust is a weakness thats all i can say. I swing from being bitterly angry to <depressed>.
I think about going back to my DOC a lot recently. I may have been a walking zombie but at least i didnt have to think about things. I dont really know where i should be posting.
Anyway thats my story. Thanks for your time.